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| Alright so I told her how I felt about her, and I got the answer that I was expecting. She still wants to be with the cheater, if thats what she wants then thats what she's going to get. I hope that she doesn't come to me when he does it again, because I won't take it. I'm moving on and I won't stand to be done like this anymore. I fucking hate how for the past 3 years my heart has been played with so many times. I really just want to fucking move away from this fucking place and start a whole new life with new people, new friends, new everything. I think it would be the best thing for me right now, because there is nothing here for me.... I would love to get sent over to Iraq just to get away from this place, I wish they would send me somewhere that would just get me out of here. I'm glad that I have to go in this weekend for drill because its getting me away from here. I'm not going to come home at all this weekend I'm going to enjoy my time away. So thats it..... | | |
| No one ever looks at this anymore anyways but that means I can put whatever I won't and no one will know. So my update is.... I've recently just purchased a Crotch Rocket, its a Suzuki SV1000S. Its black and fucking bad ASS!!!!!!! Can't wait for spring and summer, maybe then I'll be able to get a girlfriend and take her for rides. Anyways, I still like this one girl, but the problem is she has a b/f. The funny thing about it is he's already cheated on her and that makes me fucking pissed because how could someone do something like that to someone so wonderful. If I ever cheated on someone, I'd break up with myself. I wouldn't want to risk the chance of having it happen again because it will. I don't care how long your away from someone its doesn't give you the right to cheat on them. It just means that when you do spend time together make it last, make it be the best times you'll ever have. Thats what its all about. When you tell them that you love them, don't turn around and go fuck another girl or mess around with her. I fucking hate guys that do that and I just want to fucking kick their ass. I want to kick this guys ass right now. Obviously he doesn't care about her because he is cheating, which means he's not treating her right either. But whatever because I'm just speaking my mind right now. I really want to tell her how I feel about her but I'm afraid that it will ruin what we have together already. An awesome friendship. OHHHH explain this to me. Why does she always want to know when I'll see her next or when I'll talk to her???? Like when I do see her she's always asking when I'll see her next. I understand if she wants a hug because those aren't really anything big, but when I say I won't give her one she gets mad and all that. One reason why I won't understand the female mind ever. I just hope that I actually come out and tell her how I feel one day. I don't care if she has a b/f or not, I just want to get this off my chest. Well ladies and gent. that was my update. | | |
| So I'm home from NC. I checked in basically all day Friday. They said that my unit was over in 29 Palms, Cal. getting their desert training to go over to Iraq. They said I might have a chance of going with them if they need more bodies or if some of them get called back home. So we'll see how things fall out in the next two weeks. I'm pretty sure that I don't have to go back in until Oct 7, so thats pretty awesome that I can come back and just chill for awhile. I'm still looking for my bike, my mom doesn't want me to get one until I have my license so I'll be going to get that soon. At least I'll get a permit and then go from there. Thats it for now, ttyl. | | |
| Well I figured I would update even though no one looks at this. Anyways, my B-day was Weds and I get the greatest present ever which was to Field Day by the numbers. As well as the rest of that week. But the good news is I'll be home this Thurs and I'll be back to work at the Golf Course with the rest of the crew. I'll be driving my car and enjoying the rest of the time doing what ever the fuck I want. Maybe I'll find a girl while I'm home or something, HA. Thats funny. Anyways thats about all I have so I'm going to go because I have the worst life right now. Its run by the FUCKING MARINE CORP. Goodbye. | | |
| Well so I'm still stuck on this situation. I mean I still like her and would give anything to be with her again, but we haven't talked in over a year maybe. I don't care about the past, because its behind us, I just want to worry about the future. I want things to be back to the way they were before any of this happened. I understand and know what I did wrong and won't let it happen again because I don't want to lose her again. I was the happiest person alive when we were together and now that we've been apart I haven't ever been myself. She the one who would always put that smile on my face, she would always find some what to put me in a better mood. I just wish and hope that she can realize that I still love her and don't want anything bad to ever happen to her. It's true what they say, you never realize what you have until you lose it. Well I lost the best thing that ever happened to me and I would do anything to get it back. I miss talking to her on the phone every night, I miss going to all the Car Show's or the Raceway with her. I mean where else are you going to find a girl that love to do all this???? I met her at a Demo Derby, which is just fucking awesome because she was in a pretty bad mood and still looked HOT has HELL. But thats not the best part about her, the best part about her is her, just her, she doesn't have to change at all, she's PERFECT........ If anything did ever happen I would still be there for her, because I love her that much...... So thats my situation and I just need to figure things out. | | |
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